On hold.

The other day, I posted about starting all kinds of new dietary changes etc.  and I have somewhat, but I’ve also pulled the plug on some of it too.  You see, we’ve been pulling in every direction lately, and I’ve been finding myself having mini panic attacks if I think about certain things–money, weight loss, education to name a few.

As a result, I’m trying to take things one at a time and to not push myself so hard (which is hard in and of itself).  I dropped out of the Dietbet I was doing because we needed the money elsewhere.  

Once again, I’m feeling a bit of pressure on the business side of things, so we’ll have to see what happens there.  At the end of the month, one of the businesses will be done and over with.  

For now, I’ll be taking things one at a time and trying not to overdo it.

What to do?

Have you ever stopped to think about your life? Of course you have.  But really think about it.  Are you fulfilling your life’s passion?  I recently read a blog post, that really made me think. 

What if I’m not doing what I’m meant to do?

I started thinking back to things that used to be my passion.  I thought they were gone from my life, replaced by something new and different.  What if I’ve been wrong this whole time?

I used to love the creative things– writing, drawing– kitchen creations.

Now? I occasionally write a blog post.  I draw stick figures when I’m bored.  And kitchen creations?  I practically go crazy if I can’t see the recipe.  This isn’t right.  I have a passion for food (especially chocolate).  I love to cook.  I love to eat.

I have a few businesses going on, but lately it’s been getting too much.  I’ve been having panic attacks thinking about them every so often.  Something needs to change.  

But what–and how?  I’ve already invested so much of myself into some of these things.  Can I really just walk away at this point?

What to do, what to do?


Ai yi yi

Things have been crazy.  Crazy. Crazy. Crazy.

We’ve had major snowstorms, starting on Valentine’s day.  Well, ok; that one wasn’t a snow storm and for the first time EVER, I wondered why they bothered cancelling school.  Caleb had been looking forward to Valentine’s Day, and the party at the preschool, for WEEKS.  He was SO disappointed!  He didn’t cry, but he did need a hug.  No biggie.  There was no preschool on Monday, but they rescheduled the party for Wednesday in the event that preschool was cancelled.  Wasn’t there a snowstorm on Wednesday too!  The kid was crushed!

By the time Friday came around, he didn’t want to go–because he didn’t want to do the letter “Q.”  They’ve been following AlphaTales at the preschool, and that was supposed to be the letter last week.  Instead, it’s the letter this week– I asked him today if it was as bad as he thought it would be.  His response was “Yes–it was even worse than I thought!” haha

Apart from that, I’ve been researching my new way of eating–basically Flexitarian (which I already do most of the time).  And then, there’s the potty training.  I’ve decided that now is a great time to potty train Braeden.  I’ve had underwear thrown at me, I’ve had the accidents on the floor; I’ve had full out arguments over the fact that i’m not buying more Pull Ups.

It’s been “fun.”

He had a great Saturday, an awful Sunday and so far today, no accidents.  I think we may just be doing better this week.